help me understand

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I have this person in my life.

i feel in my heart that we are meant to be together, and have been, but he has suffered through years of my anxiety and leaving and returning and confusion.

he tells me that my fight or flight is skewed to flight.

i need to read some poetry that addresses this or can help me relax and accept the love being offered to me.

I dont have any more chances with him, and i need to have my head right before I jump in.

(this is TMI, i know.. but poetry helps my head and heart more than anything else I know!)

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if you forget me - pablo neruda

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I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

I have the same wild animal instinct to run, this has always explained my nature well.

Re: if you forget me - pablo neruda

[miss-providence.livejournal.com]

it is definitely a wild animal instinct-

i have a hard time wrapping my head around his patience. I am astounded and humbled by it every time I think about it.


GL to us in finding a balance :)

Re: if you forget me - pablo neruda

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This makes my heart beat just a little bit faster. I love it--so beautiful it almost makes me cry.